As a kid, I was shuffled between 4 different elementary schools and 2 different high schools. I was still lucky enough to find friends willing to keep in touch and still do today. I was put on academic probation in my first semester of my first year of university. Eventually, I graduated and found a job in my field the next day. My parents separated (twice) and eventually divorced; sadly I too, albeit amicably, have a divorce in my past. Today, I still value the idea of marriage, commitment and loyalty. I have had the big house, the bi-annual vacation getaways, rental properties, and the multiple cars, and a garage full of toys, only to see every single one of them disappear. I’ve signed papers, sat back and watched as the bank repossessed everything I had ever worked for. I had a renter steal all of my possessions, and then salt rubbed in the wound when the insurance company refused to pay for the losses. I still see the good in people, still trust people, and see my realigned viewpoint on material possessions as somewhat of a silver lining. As a teacher, I’ve been fined, suspended, and had my name dragged through the mud, time and time again. I still consider my career as a calling, still believe I make a difference every day, and know all of my missteps have been made with good intentions. I’ve heard the words “I don’t love you anymore” and “we are done” more times than I care to admit, yet through all the heartache and tears, the self-doubt and hopelessness, it lead me to my one true love. It led me home. Sometimes the things in our lives we fear, or those that seem unbearable at the time, are only preparing us for better things down the road of our journey. If my words find you in one of those horrible places, I hope you know it will get better. Have patience and faith in the healing ability of time. Believe me, I know how dark some days can get, how impossible it can be to breathe, or even get out of bed, but please don’t give up. Don’t ever give up.
- daily-esprit-descalier
